Thursday, 14 January 2016
I’ve been awake for about three hours now. Not sure if I can’t sleep, or maybe because we went to bed at 10.30pm last night.
I don’t mean for this blog to be depressing, but this is a significant moment in our life, that I feel the need to pen it down (or I guess in this case, type it down).
I don’t know when will I publish this post as everything is still a hush hush now until the company releases an official statement to the press, but I need to write this down while all these mixed emotions I currently am feeling are still fresh.
2016 wants us to start the year by throwing a major curveball at us. Yesterday was the day we found out we’re leaving Korea for good. The industry is not doing so well as we all are aware of, and because of that, the project that Em currently is working on is being put on hold.
Em was devastated, and so was I.
This is not a part of our plan, but such is life.. Going back so suddenly, it’s just heartbreaking to us. We had long-term plans and now everything is being shifted as we see fit. It’s all so… sudden. Em got to come home at 5pm yesterday (magical world of Disney) after having an urgent meeting with the bosses. We have been expecting some bad news for a couple of days, but having the project being put on hold was not what I had on my mind.
I was just about to cook dinner when I heard the passcode to our front door being keyed in. He asked me to help him out in making new plans instead (of cooking). I hugged him tight and told him it’s going to be okay. We’ve been blessed with so many rezeki since the day we got married, and this is only a minor glitch. It’s not like we’re losing everything, we still have each other, and the kids.
Two major plans that we’re putting on hold are to get a property and going to Iceland. As a matter of fact, according to our original plan, January of 2016 would be the time when we would properly start looking for a property to invest in. With the current state of Em’s industry, our priorities have shifted, and buying a property just to rent it out is no longer of importance to us.
As for Iceland.. It has been my dream to visit Iceland for a few years now. From the photos I found online, the country looks so beautiful. Last year when we were casually chatting about our dream holiday, I told Em about Iceland. He knew of the country but only to a certain depth, and being the curious cat that he is, he immediately looked it up and went even more head over heels than me. He’s been researching about the country almost every single day, downloading all documentaries he could find and making me watch it with him. He even made a budget worksheet (on Google Drive of course).
Dia lagi excited dari I.
We recently read this article about how the aurora is slowly disappearing and 2016 would be the last year of its visibility. Actually, by the end of winter to be exact (May 2016). Something to do with the solar cycle’s movement (I’m sorry I can’t remember the details). So it’s either this year, or we have to wait for another 11 years for the next cycle. Reading this, he became more determined than ever. He started eyeing for flight tickets and he was actually about to purchase them since the past couple of days (he just told me this yesterday). He wanted to get the flight tickets settled first so we could start saving up on the other expenses but… tak ada rezeki.
Not just Iceland, but for all travelling plans in total. We don’t have any yet, but knowing Em’s randomness… We’re playing safe and being realistic. With this sudden news, it’s going to benefit us a lot better if we save what we have now. InsyaAllah we will revisit the plan whenever possible in the future.
As for leaving Korea itself… Well, how can I put this into words.. There are just too much to say. Maybe I should start with Em’s side (of the story) since it’s from my perspective, it’ll take less explaining.
Em’s been living here in this country since 2007, right after he finished high school. As of now, he has lived in four different cities – Seoul, Ulsan, Busan, and Geoje-do. He loves living here he stayed behind after graduating from university, but briefly went back to Malaysia in 2013 when he decided to quit working for a Korean company to be closer to me. But that lasted for only seven months before his current company seconded him here, hehe.
South Korea is like a home to him already. He can speak the language, he loves the local delicacies, he loves the four-season weather, he made a lot of friends here – from locals to foreigners, and even Malaysians. It’s the country where he met me, and it’s also the country where we started our married life and got our five furry kids.
There are just too many fond memories of him living here, I don’t think he’d be able to let it go anytime soon. The night before he left “for good” in 2013, he was temporarily depressed. When he was seconded here, he was sad he had to leave me behind again but happy knowing I’d be joining him in his favourite country in less than a year. We started off in a small apartment that was meant for single him, to our current cosy place.
And the kids… We had plans for them. One of it was to take them out of Geoje to play with snow (since it doesn’t snow on this side of the country). This plan was originally for Mongsil and Abu last year, we’ve bought two leashes and outerwear for them but Abu got knocked up and all, lol. So we decided to postpone the plan to this winter, especially since their kids have grown up a little. But now… we no longer have the luxury of time. I am kinda disappointed but.. oh well.. not their rezeki too I suppose.
As for me, gosh where do I begin.. First and foremost, not that I don’t love Malaysia, but I really love living in this country. Malaysia is a developing country and the cost of development, one of it, sadly, is the rise of crime rate. Here I get to walk alone without fearing for my life (literally), I get to leave my bags and phone on the table and not risking it to get stolen, it’s just safer here in all aspects.
This sounds harsher than I thought it would, so let me try again.
I’m not saying that Malaysia is a completely unsafe country, but the risk is there. Just like in the US of A. Basically what I’m saying is South Korea is too safe of a country that over time, you get spoiled. Honestly, most crimes are committed in foreigners-infested area. Of course there are still a few bad local apples but majority are outsiders. Having to re-reset my mind gives me anxiety.
Also, I love that it’s just the both of us (so does Em), away from our family and friends (not that we don’t love them, but we get to focus on us). I love the cold weather, I love that I get to experiment with my makeup according to the season, I love getting to wear (faux!) furry coats, and I love the local delicacies.
But most of all, I love our current home. I love it so much the first thing that crossed my mind when Em broke the news was this home. I love this home so much that I plan to get something similar when we’re back in Malaysia for good, hehe. The house is not too big nor too small, it’s just perfect for us. The facilities provided, everything. I just love this house too much I can’t describe the intense feeling in details, does that make sense to you?
It’s the house where I feel like we properly settled in and make a home out of it. We had guests staying over nights, we hosted tonnes of dinner parties, the kids got their own “room” and a bigger playground to run around in. And it hasn’t even been a year. As a matter of fact, at the time I’m writing this, it has only been three and a half months, and we wouldn’t even make it to a year by the time we move out of this house.
I’m just… really sad. I think, well I’m not really sure about how Em exactly feels, but for me, I think that I’m not really worried about having to go back and shifting plans etc., I’m just really sad that I have to leave the life that I’ve built together with Em behind, and having to start all over from the ground, this time with more responsibilities. It’s stepping out of our comfort zone that bothers me so much. I don’t wanna leave this house, this life that we have. I’m just so used to it now. I mean… I did move to this country six days after our wedding day after all. So basically, this is our whole married life.
I know that we’ll be okay eventually, but for now, I just don’t want to leave this home. I love it too much.
But it is a relief to be able to jot this down and let it out.
Monday, 27 November 2017
So, it finally happened.
More than over a year later, fortunately. On September 1st, the date we got engaged four years ago, we finally moved back to Malaysia. It marked a new chapter for us then, and it marked a new chapter for us this year, too.
So, updates.. Since this was long coming, we took it better this time. Obviously we were still sad when we found out, but it was not shocking, ergo emotionally, I would say we were more stable than we were (more than) a year ago? Hihi.
Plus it was getting tiresome to live “unknowingly“, to “be prepared” every month, as it might happen at any time. The situation was like having a person hesitating to rip a band aid off. Now that it’s over and done with, we can finally move on and focus on bigger and better things (ceh wah).
Also the industry is getting slightly better, the project is picking up again (it slowed down last year), so that’s a relief.
Before I forget, yes we did go to Iceland (and Finland too!) last year, and it was ahmaayyzaiiinngg! We did get to see the aurora, it was so beautiful, MasyaAllah! Btw it still exists to this very winter, so the article we read was bollocks! I still have not edited the video clips yet (hihi), but I will get to it when I can. More on Iceland in the future, for now, I would like to update you on our current living situation and everything else along the line.
Back in Korea, Em worked on the PFLNG1 project (the first floating LNG in the world!), and continued working on the second project, PFLNG2, after the first ship had sailed away to Miri. Now, Em is being stationed in Sarawak, where he is being attached to another department in Bintulu for a year, whilst still working on the first project at the same time. So basically his life now is one (1) week Miri, three (3) weeks Bintulu, and weekends in KL whenever possible, every month.
As for me, I basically am based in both states, if that makes sense. I am taking care of the kids in KL, whilst flying off to Miri / Bintulu regularly, every month. You’re probably wondering why don’t I just stay in Sarawak with Em? Well, it’s because of the kids.
Sarawak (and only Sarawak, apparently), has this law where animals from overseas have to either: 1) Be quarantined for six (6) months if they’re being flown straight to Sarawak from overseas; 2) Be “KL residents” for at least six (6) months before being flown to Sarawak, hence lowering the quarantine period to only one to three (1-3) months, depending on the state of their health.
It was a tough decision for the both of us, but we just couldn’t see ourselves allowing the kids to stay in a tiny cage, separated from one another, albeit being in the same room (if they’re lucky), for six (6) whole months. As if the initial seven (7) days quarantine at KLIA Animal Quarantine Station was not enough? It will cause them so much stress, so we decided to let them “be KL residents” for six (6) months, and then we will take it from there.
As of now, they’re staying at my mom’s place, and she helps me take care of them whenever I’m not around. Em and I are thinking of getting our own place in KL, but seeing how attached my mom is to the kids, and how convenient it is to have her help look after them, we’re not so sure anymore. My mom is so addicted to them, she even told me to just move to Sarawak and leave the kids with her, lol.
We’re still in the midst of unpacking our boxes (we had mover drama too, the company should change their tagline); and the house is basically still a hot mess. I don’t know when will this endddd, it seems never ending but according to Em, we’ve made a lot of progress. He did most of the work too btw, so yay Em!
So I guess that’s about it for now. Will we get a property and settle down in Malaysia for good? Or will we move back to Korea or another country in the future? Honestly, we have no idea. Maybe we will, maybe we won’t. We’re just taking it a day at a time, who knows what the future may hold. But right now, it seems like we’re planting our roots in this country .
Until next time!